He ToLD mE ...

Basmallah...

He had told me ,

that one day I have to face it by myself . I remember the moment , when we are at our orchard . That morning , I had to help him at the orchard to get  manage some plants . Yes , it was a hot day . Luckily , we started it earlier . The sugarcane , of course need some good care because if we don't tear up its paring, the taste would not  sweet , he said . Yeah , we had a long hard day to finish some of them and because some of them were really really big ! Before I forgot , we also had to cut down the bananas leaves before they grow too large . Haha , such a fun moment to remember . Sometimes my brother were the one who helped the most . My mom said he was really strong ! yeah Im feeling inferior but that is true . 

Then it come into rest , because the sun shine just over our head . Huh , I was bathing with the sweats . My brother had went back home . I was sitting there , under the shadow bananas tree . Then he looked at some point on the orchard , far... no one knew what he just saw . Suddenly he said " to face this life is not easy , there would come a time when you have to face the most troubles in your life  . But don't be so desperate to solve it but do it with calm , what a desperate action brings you is just more problems ." I was just stunned . I didnt expect him  to say that all of the sudden . He knew that I would be here , knew that I'll face the 'time ' . The most important thing that he believed that I can make it here .


Yes ,  when I don't believe in myself , he believes more , he encourages more . He said that he don't want me to be like him in the future . He just want to see us (my siblings and I ) succeed in our lives and makes him proud . I had seen he suffered a lot to raised us . Yes he suffered , but never regret !