Bonda Ibu Mak Ummi Mother . What else ?

Alright, here we go .
My greatest appreciation to my beloved Mother , (Assalamualaikum )

*in English, enhancing skill for BH exam

Obviously I just want to talk about my mother . Yes, a person who had  given birth to me . That's not all . She had done a lot of sacrifices in my life . It is not to mention about when I was a child or generally all of us , the mothers around the world had to put on their energy and time to take care of us . Not having a good night sleep and  of course neither a good day spent are most common things that a mother had faced .

    My mother told me when I was a child , I was attacked with severe asthma attack . She was very scared for me . But , I dont remember anything. So, whenever I caught on cough , she would remind me of this , and I just like ' relax mom, Im a big boy now ' haha .  But I know , deep in her mind , she must had a very unpleasant memory about that . 

    My mother just a normal woman . She works as a housewife . She never get a chance to work because she was not came from a rich family . Never get the chance to the higher education .But beside all of that , she is the most inspirational teacher to me . Teaching me all she got from her life . Thats why I was always got scolded when I was young because I had made my brother and little sister cried , a lot ! haha . But , what I can say , she was a very fierce teacher *2nd after my  dad. 

I bet I was really really scared when she was angry and brought a very big rattan and then the turnover ; I cried being punished .

   As I mention before , she was a very inspirational teacher . You know , when we grown to teenagers , its a bit awkward to express your feeling to your father rather than your mother . Whenever im away from my home for studying at university or high school ; I will call my father first.... to talk to my mother . Its a little bit funny actually . Usually it would become like this :

Me : Hello dad , what are you doing now?

Dad : Yeah , im just doing ....... . How are you ? How was your study? What are you doing now?     

         Do you have enough money ?

Me : Well, bla bla bla bla......

A silent moment , krik krik krik ...

Dad : Do you want to talk to your mother ? 

Me: Yeah , sure why not :P

Dad  calling mom.....

Mom ,continue for longer time talking , gossiping ,etc

   I express a lot of my problem especially on studying to my mother . Its  really regenerating my spirit and confident whenever she tell me I can always do it  . Whenever I tel her the exam would be hard and I don't think that I can do that and she will say '' nah.. you can do it . Absolutely you an do it . I always never forget to pray for you in my prayer ." She put so much belief in me . 

    Or else in much same situation  when it comes to hard subjects , she would say " What can I say , I do not have higher education to give you ways how you study .. just look like how you made it before . I believe in you " And yes who dont cry when your mother say like that to you . yes , mother thank you . 

Thank you my mother /teacher ,

I really love you and I want you to know,

though Im sure you will not read this .

Sincerely , your beloved Son .

Nak Ke Mana ?

Haisshh...
Time exam2 ni pulak rajin nak update .
Hmmmm....

Banyak benda yang dah berubah sejak lama tak update . Memang banyak sangat . Tapi , kadang-kadang sesetengah perkara elok dibiar dalam hati . Eh bermain hati pulak . Stop , tak pergi kat situ.

Kadang-kadang bila dah lama kita tak  ditegur orang , masalah boleh dipandang enteng . Kita merasakan masalah berpunca daripada kealpaan kita dan juga nasib malahan kesalahan orang lain sampai kadang kala membentak bentak . Apabila asal nikmat itu tak disandarkan pada Pencipta semulanya , maka selepas tu musibah akan dibawa ke arah mana . Mencari solusi , tanpa merujuk Ilahi .

Terkesan dengan peristiwa sebenarnya , kawan atau selayaknya digelar sahabat . Sedang dengan bakal housemates sibuk mencari rumah , ada sahaja masalah yang datang menimpa . Lepas satu musibah datang lagi satu musibah . Hampir semuanya berjumpa jalan buntu . Berminggu lamanya kami mencari solusi . Buntu yang amat sangat . Dengan bebanan exam di atas kepala , mana tidaknya kami tidak stress . 

Sedang satu saat apabila kami tersangat buntu , datang mesej daripada akhi ini ,

semenjak dua menjak ni kita asyik bercelaru. kenapa? mungkin hablumminallah kita byk terlompong. mungkin hubungan dgn allah tak jaga, mana taknya sesama kita runsing. quoted from ***** as i ponder along my way back to ***********. #tazkirah isya'

 Aku terkedu . Tertikam diri . Mungkin saja aku termasuk golongan itu .Mungkin saja diri ini terlalu jauh mengejar duniawi . Tersentak dengan teguran itu . Walaupun seketika aku tersedar hakikat itu , namun aku tidak menegur yang lain . Besarnya dosa diri ini . 

Ya Allah , diri ini mungkin terlalu alpa dengan dunia ini .

Berilah taufik dan hidayah Mu ,

sesungguhnya kepada Engkau lah kami berserah .

Ya Allah , aku bersyukur kepada-Mu kerana diberi housemate yang baik :)

*Tolong doakan exam ;)

Terima Kasih ...

Dulu , mula-mula kenal dulu aku tak sangka kami boleh jadi serapat ni .

Aku ingat lagi mula-mula kita bertemu dalam rumah kat uni dulu , kami yang riuhkan rumah tu sedangkan kita baru jumpa .Dalam beberapa hari saja kami jadi kawan rapat . Aku pun tak paham macam mana kita boleh jadi begitu rapat . Semuanya  berlaku secara tidak sedar . Dalam semua housemate , dialah yang paling aku sayang .

Walaupun kadangkala kami bergaduh dalam senyap , tapi jauh di hati masih aku sayang sahabat aku ini . Dialah yang aku selalu dengan aku walau aku sedang aku goyah .

Gambar kami derma darah :)

Ditakdirkan kami mendapat uni yang berbeza . Jauh di sudut hati aku aku rasa sedih kerana terpaksa berpisah dengan dia . Tapi aku tabahkan hati . Aku tahu semua ini ada hikmahnya dalam persahabatan ni . Dan aku bersabar , dua tahun setengah bukanlah lama . 

Nak diceritakan , hujung minggu ni dia dah datang melawat .  Aku memang sangat happy bila dapat tahu dia nak datang .Maklumlah sebelum ni banyak halangan untuk berjumpa dia . Hujung minggu penuh dengan program-program yang tak dapat dielakkan . Dan aku berlagak sebagai Tour Guider kepada dia dan seorang lagi kawan aku yang datang . 

Memang seronok, dapat berjalan-jalan bersama dia . Sudah lama sangat rasanya kami dah terpisah padahal cuma beberapa bulan . Hujung minggu dengan dia antara pengalaman paling best aku di Cork .

Makan KFC !!

Sepanjang perjalanan banyak pengalaman yang kami dapat bersama . Memang aku terhibur . Aku cuba bagi layanan yang terbaik . memang satu Cork kitorang terjun , haha .

Tapi sebentar tadi masa dia nak pulang , satu perasaan yang dah lama aku tak rasa muncul . Rasa yang hanya muncul bila aku nak berpisah dengan keluarga aku untuk satu masa yang lama ketika dulu . Dan betapa aku sedar betapa aku hargai nilai persahabatan ini . Bukan sekadar sahabat, tapi juga ibarat keluarga aku . Ya , aku rasa teramat sedih seketika tadi ibarat berpisah dengan keluarga . 

Terima Kasih :')

Terima kasih sebab datang sini . Terima kasih kerana menjadi sahabat aku . Terima kasih sebab menghadirkan perasaan keluarga . Terima kasih SAHABATku di dunia dan akhirat insyaAllah .

He ToLD mE ...

Basmallah...

He had told me ,

that one day I have to face it by myself . I remember the moment , when we are at our orchard . That morning , I had to help him at the orchard to get  manage some plants . Yes , it was a hot day . Luckily , we started it earlier . The sugarcane , of course need some good care because if we don't tear up its paring, the taste would not  sweet , he said . Yeah , we had a long hard day to finish some of them and because some of them were really really big ! Before I forgot , we also had to cut down the bananas leaves before they grow too large . Haha , such a fun moment to remember . Sometimes my brother were the one who helped the most . My mom said he was really strong ! yeah Im feeling inferior but that is true . 

Then it come into rest , because the sun shine just over our head . Huh , I was bathing with the sweats . My brother had went back home . I was sitting there , under the shadow bananas tree . Then he looked at some point on the orchard , far... no one knew what he just saw . Suddenly he said " to face this life is not easy , there would come a time when you have to face the most troubles in your life  . But don't be so desperate to solve it but do it with calm , what a desperate action brings you is just more problems ." I was just stunned . I didnt expect him  to say that all of the sudden . He knew that I would be here , knew that I'll face the 'time ' . The most important thing that he believed that I can make it here .


Yes ,  when I don't believe in myself , he believes more , he encourages more . He said that he don't want me to be like him in the future . He just want to see us (my siblings and I ) succeed in our lives and makes him proud . I had seen he suffered a lot to raised us . Yes he suffered , but never regret !